I know, no report last week. Well, it’s pretty much the exact same report as this week, so you’re not missing anything.
Drop Dead Gorgeous By December Week 7 Report:
Starting Weight: 264.0
Last Week’s Weight: 259.6
Current Weight: 257.2 pounds
Difference: -2.0 pounds (for 2 weeks)
Goals from now until December:
1. Eat only when I am truly physically hungry, and not because I am bored/angry/tired.
2. Drink at least 64oz. of water daily.
3. Workout 4-5 times per week.
4. Practice yoga every single day.
ONE brag for the week: Nothing much to brag about. Busy doing self-reflection (see below).
ONE thing to improve upon for next week: FOCUS.
A while back I mentioned that I was going to set up an appointment with a counselor to talk through some of the crap that goes on in my head. And then I hedged and waffled and didn’t want to go. Well, finally I made the appointment, and I had my first meeting with her last week. I’m not going into detail about what we talked about (I won’t even tell my husband, you really think I’m going to post it on the internet?), but it brought up some things for me to think about.
The main thing I’ve been thinking about over the past week is goals. I noticed a pattern in my life of running away from things, but never running towards anything in particular, so I’ve been trying to form an image of what I actually do want. I’ve been running over questions like those in my Stop Failing Yourself post and trying to picture what my idea life looks like.
I’m not sure what it looks like, not yet, but I have a few ideas.
I want to be slim and strong and powerful. I want to be bold and courageous. I want to speak my mind. I want other people to see me as strong and courageous.
I want to help people feel better about themselves, even if it’s in a very simple, very small way. I want to help people make their lives better. I want to help people be happy. I want to be happy.
I want to see the beauty in the world, and I want to show it to other people. I want to share it.
I want to listen more than I speak.
I want to get better at following through. Period.
I want to prove to myself that I am worthy of respect, of confidence, most of all from myself.
I want to treat my body with respect, because it has done so much good for me. It has earned star treatment.
I want to run and lift weights and practice yoga. I want to show others they can do those things too, especially when they think they can’t. I want to show people how strong they are. I want to be encouragement and inspiration.
I want my world to be filled with color and light, and everywhere I look something makes me smile.
I want to feel light and confident, sure of myself and my path. I want to feel serene. Content.
I haven’t figure out just yet how I’m going to get from here to there. But I trust that there is a path.